For many years now over 20 years I have been on this amazing journey of self-discovery and healing. Over 5 years ago I began another journey training to become an Integrative Coach. To say that today I am not even close to who I was 5 years ago wouldnot be an exaggeration, I look the same in some ways, but the changes from within are so much that I would not even know where to begin; yet in that moment at 5 am I realized that I was still only living 50% of the capacity of who I have become today! Now for future reference I realize we all have infinite possibilities and the ability to reach for the sky and beyond but first each step along the way we need to be willing to step 100% into the newest evolution of ourselves.
For about 8 months now starting last winter I slid back into some dark places, what we call in coaching my default mode. With some stress in my life I went back to very comfortable ways of being complacent. I stopped envisioning and dreaming and went into an old friend I call survival mode. You know this friend , the part of us that slides through the day without real passion or direction. I call this a friend because at one time in my life this friend served me well but no longer. Don’t get me wrong I have done amazing things over the past years that I am so proud of but I realized in the early dawn that I had lost my passion for life. I got lazy with my journey and realized I was way out of integrity in so many ways.
So for the last 3 weeks I have been working harder than at any other time in my life to shift my old paradigm. Those old patterns of thoughts and habits that no longer serve us. Every morning I am spending at least 60 min writing my vision, dreaming, praying and focusing on how I can show up that day with greater integrity to myself and others no matter what comes my way! I have recommitted to my body and have made a list of integrity issues that I have not addressed and one by one I am doing them all, from cleaning out my closets to finishing long forgotten to do lists. I have this overwhelming urge to strive for excellence in a way I have never before. Not perfection because that is God’s business but for excellence!
I am so excited for my 50th Birthday now for I have committed to be unrecognizable to myself! Yes I will still look the same to others yet the people who know me will and have already seen the change. I realize now that my vision is not possible until I make one hell of a quantum leap in my consciousness and stay committed to it no matter what and I am going to celebrate this new evolution on July 18th and beyond!!
I WILL still continue to welcome my default shadow selves, fear, judgement, unworthiness, etc in the door of my heart to teach me to love all of who I am but they are not allowed to move in!!! I Will listen to my heart’s desire with a new awareness and understanding and bring a new level of integrity to everything I do, EVERYTHING; from my coaching to washing the dishes!!!!!! I have called on a good friend to hold me accountable, we have been talking once a week. I have a calendar that I show below that I put colourful dots on each day that I stay integrity with my body. For me this is walking, yoga, eating well and Qigong at night before I go to bed. I love seeing my progress , it reminds me of Sunday school when we got gold stars!! I love who I am and more importantly I love who I am becoming, this is what I give to me as a birthday gift and may the next half of my life be the best I have ever had!!!!
Let us all commit to loving ourselves and others more than we ever thought possible!! What can you do today to make a quantum leap in consciousness! We all deserve to live life to the absolute fullest!!