Perfectionism is overrated lets not forget impossible! Funny how even though we understand this to be true intellectually we often find ourselves in this bid to be perfect. As if somehow if we can’t “do” and “be” perfect we are somehow flawed.
This has been a strange week for me; I have times like this where I go down what I refer to as “the rabbit hole”. You know the feeling when all of a sudden (or not so sudden) we find ourselves in a dark lost place. When I first arrive here I often struggle with not being perfect somehow, my ego will struggle and tell me that I should not be here again. Only after I surrender that notion I become familiar and even Ok with this place. Somewhere in my heart I have learned that no matter what is going on emotionally that there is a wee still quiet place that exists no matter what I am feeling. In this internal space I am infinitely connected to God and have all that I need.
I spend less and less time in this rabbit hole these days, and for the most part I don’t fall to far down before (with divine guidance) I pull myself out once again into the light. I have come to know that these times when I feel out of sorts are opportunities to check in and see what it is that I need. I can fall into old patterns and know when I do that they are only a sign post that directs me inward.
Understanding and even embracing all of whom I am, my dark and my light is a constant journey of discovery. A journey that is one of the greatest gifts I have ever given myself.
“Let us remember that within us there is a palace of immense magnificence” Teresa of Avila
picture by Debbie Roberts